Errgh!

Well, if you're looking for a weight loss update then you're in for a disappointment. Because that's what I get every time I step on the scale. Obviously the scale is not my friend.

So instead I am going to update you on 2 revelations I have had today:

1. Early this morning I watched 2 videos. Colbie Caillat's "Try" and John Legend's "You and Me"

You can watch them here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXoZLPSw8U8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pi3bc9lS3rg

Both are videos about women being beautiful no matter what shape, size, color, scar, hairstyle etc.  I thought that maybe it's time women quit being so hard on themselves and I thought about why I was so desperate to lose weight - and it was an easy answer, I would like to fall in love again. I then realized that no one else is going to love me unless I love myself. It's time for me to not worry about the numbers on the scale and worry about how I feel about myself and how I treat the people around me every day.

By the way John Legend - you're video losses some of the effect of your message when you walk off with your supermodel wife from your giant walk in closet at the end. Just Sayin'.

2. This afternoon I realized that it has been a long time since I craved a sweet after dinner. I am notorious for grabbing a handful of whatever after eating. I can't remember the last time I had the need or grabbed the chocolate. And that makes me feel good about the changes I'm trying to make.

So next up - the Today Show has issued a detox challenge for the month of August. I'm trying to figure out what else I can give up. I keep thinking alcohol - but I don't hate myself that much!